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A Horrible Week of Holidays

Monday, March 21, 2005

I supposed to be very happy because I have a week of holidays. I predicted a relax life in this week since there are only a few of homework to be done but I was wrong. I spent my whole week for my driving lesson since my expiry date for the lesson is nearing. I have to pay extra money for the driving lesson after the expiry date is over, so I do not have a choice to escape.

On Monday, I started my driving lesson. The night before, I was so nervous and worried because I had never driven a car before. I asked a few of my friends who had just finished their driving test for a preparation. I do not want to be scolded on the first day of driving in my life. I still remember on 14 March 2005 at 4 o’clock, the instructor came to drive me to a place where have lesser cars. He allowed me to drive after explaining the driving method to me. I felt that I wasn't driving the car but rather the instructor because he was the one, who helped me to change the gear, controlled the steering and stepped the break paddle for me. Everything was fine on the first day because I was helped in everything. After coming back from the lesson, my shoulder was swollen. Feeling like an old people, whole body seems stop functioning.

On Tuesday, the second day of my driving lesson, I was being murmured like a mad person. Each time, when I wanted to stop the car, my heart will beat faster because I am afraid that the engine will stop especially when there were many cars at the back of me. Then, my instructor taught me driving in up hill. The engine always broke down that made the instructor murmured more.

On Wednesday, he started to let me drove from my house to the driving school. It was horrible. The road there was uneven and I always murmured by the instructor. I felt that what my friend said was right, girls born to be a bad driver. I can’t even drive on the straight road well. Can you imagine? On the third day, I still can’t drive on the straight road well? I really fed up with my instructor; I felt that he murmured from the beginning till the end of my lesson. There was once, I wanted to stop the car and get out from the car saying I want to give up. I really cannot stand his voice already. Each night, when I want to sleep, his voice keeps on appearing in my mind. I think I need a psychologist in no time.

I really thank God that from Thursday until Sunday he is busy and do not have to teach me. At least in these few days, I can relax a little bit. I know that he is trying to help me improve my driving but I felt that he will just giving me pressure only. I hope that I will not turn to be a crazy. Amen!

elain3
11:08 AM
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Identity

Saturday, March 19, 2005

The definition of identity is who or what someone is. An identity is formed by yourself and no one can form an identity for you. Whether the identity of yours is good or bad, it is a choice of yours. Identity probably formed since you are a child who know how to differentiate what is good or bad.

Although others cannot form an identity for you, they may lead and guide you to be a better person. For example, since young our parents started to teach us what is manner and what is pleasurable to others.

elain3
12:44 PM
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HairStyLes

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Everyone has their freedom to choose their hairstyle. Hairstyle did not play a very important role in the olden days but now, hairstyles changes the way people think about others. Hairstyles eventually become important to everyone. Besides, hairstyles come out with surprisingly colour and styles. Today’s fashion cannot survive without it because of its important position in the world. However, hairstyle is also a form of expression of each and everyone in the world today. People can use it to express to others about themselves.

Our college had a “Wacky Hairstyles Day” on last Friday. Everyone seemed excited about it and decided to do something with their hair. There was a stall specially built for “Wacky Hairstyles Day”. Everyone demanded the style that they wanted in order to express something about themselves. It was a good opportunity to show others who they really are.

elain3
12:24 AM
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Chinese New Year

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Each Chinese New Year seems the same to me. Every year, I have to do same old thing that is Chinese New Year visitation. I feel that myself is just like a doll, sitting there with nice custom and nothing to do. Most probably because I am not close with my relatives and even my parents' friends. I tried to involve myself in adult's conversation but it seems boring to me. I rather sitting there and continue my pretending as a doll. There was a few times, I declined to follow my parents for the Chinese New Year visitation and I ended up with scolding. They said that it is a manner to visit them. However, I felt that I am old enough to make my own choices whether or not to follow them.
Besides, I dislike the tradition of Chinese New Year. I was always told to dress in red on Chinese New Year. It brings us prosperity and luck. Actually, I dislike dressing in red because I felt odd whenever I dressed in red. I prefer to dress in black. Unfortunately, each time I dressed in black and I will get scolding from my parents.
As for this year, my celebration of Chinese New Year is different. My family and I went to Singapore on the first day of Chinese New Year but my father did not follow us because he wants to respect his parents. Although the mood of Chinese New Year is not there, it is very enjoyable being in Singapore. The environment there is very clean and I felt embarrassed of my own country. During the holidays in Singapore, I felt my burdens are lighten because I don't have to worry of my college work, which irritates me. I felt that I learn a lot of things when I was there such as doctrines of being a human. Besides, I have plenty of time to meditate of who I am.

elain3
1:31 PM
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LiFe vS. DEatH

My mother received a call just now from my uncle. We received a bad news from him that my mother’s friend passed a few minutes ago. Although I do not know him nor see him before, my heart felt uncomfortable and wanted to cry aloud. Suddenly, I felt that life is really marvelous. Our heartbeat may stop any seconds from now. I did not really think about this problem previously, maybe because I am still young and do not have a time to think about it or maybe I already know where I will be going after my first death.

I am wondering where he is going and what he is doing now. This incident teaches me that life is not a joke. Life does not have a second chance and when it is over, we do not have a chance to do it again. I found out that sometimes I strived to provide something that I lust but does it worth for me to sacrifice what I have include my relationship with my love ones? Nothing is important than appreciating. Humans usually do not appreciate what they are having but rather regret for not appreciating something that they lose.

elain3
1:07 PM
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DePeNdEnT

Dependent is defined as reliance on others and it is the opposite meaning of independent. Each stages of life surely need to depend on something else. For example, children need to rely on their parents for nurturance and education; teenagers need to be supported financially for their education and even adults need to depend on their job to provide income.

On the other hand, everyone must learn to be independent for the benefit of the future. They cannot rely on others all the while. Although being an independent person is a difficult task, there are many times we need to apply it if we are all alone and nobody is willing to help.

elain3
12:17 PM
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