hate myself..
Saturday, September 10, 2005
recently, i feel tat i become very naughty la.. i no longer am de last time elaine.. de last time me is very very innocent, dunu wat the world is going on.. dunu how does the society look like.. 4 last time, i wil probably crying or sked of sum1 who is very different than im.. but now.. im used 2 the environment liao.. actually,it's ok..but recently, i feel tat im always away frm home which last time i dun.. 4 las time, i hardly go out wit frens.. probably four or five times a year.. like yterday.. i went 2 MI spectecular 7 in shah alam.. i came back at 12.15am, actually, i wanted 2 go back earlier.. but then, my fren insist 2 wait 4 farah they all.. wat can i do? is WAIT... coz my fren's mom is the one who fetch me bakc.. her mom was nagging my fren 2 go back oredi.. but then, she din listen, stil wana wait de idols 2 come back.. sigh! 2day, my dad scolded me.. he said im too over liao.. he asked me, i dun need 2 study is it? always go after it.. feel very very bad..
HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!! wat had happened 2 me?? y m i being an ungrateful n disobedient child? me stupid, sickening, gd 4 nth, irritating specimen.. the world hates me!!! i dun deserve 2 b here!!! y m i chosen 2 live here? i dun deserve it!!! i dunu how 2 live rite liao.. i even start 2 b blur of my purpose of being here. las time i was very clear bout my purpose of living but no longer now.. even yterday's lunch.. i felt very very very guilty.. i felt tat i made my frens annoyed..
elain3
2:42 PM
![[contact]](https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/blogger_img_proxy/AEn0k_vvDGOWzJk86sSg0QnlWTaO_2gG5OJMyjsraicX8qs7JAmdkhGxw8NOHS1fwF7KEefKBeTPMOj_bQ7TDLEWlkHFkUQGwQzyltMpyoIJU_NeIqjxPpD4lNbhFJc=s0-d)
hotmail/msn
<$BlogItemCommentCount$> Comments:
<$BlogCommentBody$>
<$BlogCommentDeleteIcon$><$BlogItemCreate$>
<< Home