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Monday, December 05, 2005

my mom comforted me dis morning.. she told me how she worried 4 me.. she actually was quite dilemma whether to allow me continue working or not.. if i continue working, she will be worried for my safety. if i stop working, she knew that i will be very hurt and i would be a very irresponsible person because i promised my friend to replace her while she is away. actually, i felt very bad because i made those beside me worried for me.

even my boyfriend willing to spend his whole day accompany me in the office because he also scared that i will be in trouble. im very sorry for letting u to worry about me.. besides, i felt that im quite childish most of the time. i do not know how to think properly. i didn't care about the feeling of others before making any decision. instead, i was being rebellious against my parents. they just only care for me. sigh!

my mother told me that i may continue look for another job after my holiday. i think i will be working next year, around new year. hopefully everything will be fine for my coming job. sometimes, i really feel useless because even my job also need to be decided by my parents. actually the main purpose of working is just to prove to others that im not "qin gam xiu jie". i don't really like it when others call me rich girl. i felt that it's an insultment. it's like im useless, all i have is to depend on my father. I DON'T WANT THAT! i wanna tell others that i'm independent enough to earn my very own money. even though most of the times, im quite dependant la.. hehe! but i would like to learn to be independent..

anyway, everything has settled down already. there is no point murmuring and complaining. accept the fact.. LIFE HAVE TO GO ON! God is always in control. Believe it, I will always try to rely on Him.

elain3
10:14 PM

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